November 1st, 2007 My Amazing God
Last night, we watched a video from NOOMA with Rob Bell, and it basically went over the chapter in his book Velvet Elvis called Dust. It talked about walked in your rabbi's dust, and they asked, "Whose's your rabbi? Whose dust are you covered in?"
Of course, they talked about the obvious and "best-sounding" answer: Jesus. But they pushed it and ask whose dust are you really walking in, and why?
But I'm truly covered in the dust of Jesus Christ.
Not because I wanted to live forever. Not because I felt like I needed to be saved at the time. But because I desired to be like him..
His love, his truth, his way... these are what I desire. To be a person connected with the ultimate reality of this world, to be a person who is covered in the dust of the PERFECT rabbi.
Add a commentTo man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue.
Proverbs 16:1
October 29th, 2007 Waiting For Life
I've been waiting for life to begin for far too long. I'm done waiting for life to come to me. I'm chasing after it from now on. I'm living for now, not for tomorrow. I could die... and never have experienced anything. This doesn't apply to God or my promise to him, though. I will love him through and through. Its just.. I want to have fun. For once in my life, I'm not holding back. I'm not feeling guilty. I'm being me. Even when my parents think I'm crazy, dumb, a nerd, a lazy girl, I don't care. Not anymore. I'm me, and thats okay. I'm not going to live to please them!! Its not my job, they're never pleased!! The things people to just to piss people off!! And it makes them happy.
I'm going to be me, even if that person doesn't get along with everybody. I'm going to try to be somebody who cares about people, but has a sense of style, a sense of humor, etc. I'm done with self destruction.
As Vash once said, Love and Peace!!
Add a commentOctober 19th, 2007 CSD/SS
Wednesday was community service day. We took our PSAT's in the morning, then left after lunch. Mr. Sorgaard backed the minibus into the fence and broke it before we even left. It was described over the janitor's radios as a "technical difficulty." That was pretty funny. Then we left. My group was most of the guys in my class, Nin, me, and some other younger people. We raked an old, bearded, but nice-looking guy's house, then we washed an ambulance. All the guys were trying to get Nin wet and she was trying to be all sexy. To get my mind off of it, I started a waterfight with the younger kids. It was loads of fun. I just wish that for that one second, the thought didn't enter my mind that I wanted to be her. Sure, I'd like a relationship with a guy, but not like that. I want someone who I can talk to about God, who can put up with my craziness and ignore me when he needs to... I want someone who will respect me and not look down on me and love me with all he has, because thats the way I love, and I couldn't settle for anything less.
Yesterday night we had a soul session at my house. We carved pumpkins, ate pumpkin seeds, ate supper, then I spoke. I felt pretty bad afterwards cuz Kimmy didn't seem to pay much attention. But Hopie did. I just wish I could have some honest feedback. And I wish someone would tell me whats right and whats wrong as far as the church things go.. cuz what I believe is so different from so many people, and they don't like me for it. Am I wrong? Are we supposed to offer sacrifices and never talk about our feelings? Are we supposed to have our lives all about fun and ourselves, and not worry about the rest of the world? I fear that. I don't want it to be that way. I don't want that to be the truth. Cuz that would lessen my view of the perfect God, and I struggle with that already.
Add a commentOctober 18th, 2007 Perfect Hot Cocoa Recipe
I was just experimenting with my lovely hot chocolate this morning, and it turned out amazing! Here's the recipe:
Pour a little less than 1/2 of the mug full of milk. Add just a splash of half & half. Add a drop of almond extract, and a dash of cinnamon. Fill the rest with water. Heat it up in the microwave for a minute and a half, then add 3 teaspoons of Swiss Miss hot chocolate mix. Voíla! 
October 13th, 2007 Time To Stop
Its time for this to stop. This habit. I'm done. I'm changed. I'm going to lose the weight and keep it off. And its all for God, not for me. That has to be my reason. I want to be able to play dodgeball with kids if I teach confirmation in the future. I want to be able to run. I love to run. My goal weight is 130. I'm not sure if it'll work out.. but I hope it does. 
I'm not sure if my build at that weight will be too skinny... but I don't think so. I guess I'll just have to see.
Wish me luck.... 